It’s 3:25am. I’m awake. Not because my Baby is in need of anything. We’ve actually been blessed with a baby that’s been sleeping a good 6-8 hours since around two months. I’m awake because. Just because.
I realized that I hadn’t written my “first blog post” and it was bothering me that I couldn’t figure out how to just delete it so I’m being OCD and filling it.
I can hear my husband snore from the living room through closed doors…
I wrote a parody of my current situation:
“Hello, futon, my old friend. I’ve come to sleep on you again. Because my husband’s loud, disturbing breathing is impeding my sleeping. And the noise that has reverberated in my brain, still remains…I seek the sound of silence… 😴🛋🛌“
Check out the blog post after this one for the true first blog post. Thanks for staying up with me 😘😘
More scrunchymomz adventures, personal stories, tips and tricks, and some fun DIY/upcycles to come! Talk soon!
Just needed to write something to fill in the void that has been my blog since my last post.
I actually have two and a half drafts saved, one of which I keep going back to and slowly editing. But I keep leaving it as a draft because I can’t get myself to be happy with it.
It’s also kind of hard to take time to write when I’m constantly having to stop one or both of the boys from getting into something.
And I’ll be honest, I’ve been feeling a bit burnt out lately. Mikey has been going through a sleep regression, Vinny and I have been doing a little better about navigating the terrible two’s, but when he has bad days, they’re BAD, both of our cars (one of which is new to us and we got it for more car space) have been having issues, I’ve been falling behind on the house, I’ve been falling behind on writing requests and projects, and the holidays and all that goes with it is just the cherry on top of my mental flat-lined-ness.
(I wrote a post last year on how not to stress around the holidays, so that’s not getting to me too too much, but it’s just that last little detail that needs attention, you know?)
On top of that, I’ve just been feeling a little discouraged when it comes to the blog. I hate to say it, but I’ve been kind of sad about how small my following still is on here and my social media. I feel sort of like I’ve flopped, I guess.
I know it can take a while to get a following, if you get one at all, and it takes a lot of work to do it the right way. And I know this is a saturated market these days, so I totally get that it’s easy to get lost in the crowd.
Sometimes I worry about my skills as a writer. I often feel like I’ve lost my touch after having kids. I worry that people don’t like what I put out, and that I’m no good at this, so sometimes I either get too self conscious or I just think, “why bother?”
But then I think about those times I have gotten random comments on some of my older posts. The ones who have thanked me for writing about a certain topic, the ones who have told me that I have helped them through a struggle, the ones who have shared a laugh with me at some of the pratfalls of parenting.
Then I think about all of the times I’ve searched something on Pinterest and how that search led me to a blog post that got me through something, or gave me instructions for a fun activity for my boys, or just made me realize that I’m not alone in some things. I don’t think I commented on many of those, let alone thought to follow them at the time, so they have no way of knowing that they helped me–but they did.
So maybe, even though I don’t have many followers to show for it, I have made a difference for some Moms out there. Even if I feel like I’m not so good at this.
I started this blog for a few reasons: for fun, to help me through postpartum depression, to make sense of my experiences, to keep up my writing skills out of work, and to help other Moms–particularly other Scrunchy Moms like me!
The Moms who use screen time, but don’t like GMO’s. The Moms who only buy sustainably sourced clothes, but who will get a happy meal once in a while because it’s been a day. The Moms who cloth diaper, but formula feed. And all the other Moms in between.
Somewhere along the way I lost sight of that and got wrapped up in the Influencer rat race.
I know that God put a knack and interest in writing in my heart for a reason. I’m meant to do something with this to carry out His work. So, if I can help even just one Mom with something every few posts, or help ease one Mom’s loneliness, or just give one Mom a laugh, then what does it matter what number the subscribers list reflects?
I know I’ll probably get discouraged again, it’s only natural. But I will continue to post blogs, update my Instagram stories, and put up Instagram shoots even if it’s just for myself and my friends and family. Because it’s something I’m doing for me, and I think that’s important to have as a Mom.
Anyways, thanks for reading! I’ll have a real post up within this next week, hopefully!
I have some pretty meaningful content coming up. At least, it’s meaningful to me, but I like to think it will have something to offer you guys one way or another.
I’m going to be talking about body issues again, and about how although Mom’s groups are super helpful, they could also be making you depressed.
Those posts are currently in the works. I just want to make sure I have time to work on them. And that’s been harder to do lately.
In the meantime, I wanted to whip up a quick post from my phone so I don’t lose momentum.
Forgive me if this isn’t my best, I still have a DST hangover and the boys have not been sleeping that great 😑
So we just turned the clocks back an hour recently, which means it’s been getting darker much earlier. I always have a hard time this time of year.
My motivation plummets, I get more tired, and my anxiety and irritability increase.
A lot of people experience Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) when winter comes around. And it makes sense. Less daylight and more time confined indoors can take a toll on anyone’s happiness.
Strangely I love cloudy weather. I would be super happy if it was cloudy all of the time. Like if I could move to Seattle or London where it rains or mists all the time, I’d be elated! So it’s not so much the overcast and chill that bothers me, it’s the balding trees and darkness that does it for me, personally.
Anyway, I have noticed this seasonal shift starting to affect my parenting, which isn’t good. So I need to come up with a plan on how to stop it in its tracks.
Here’s what I plan to do, if you’re interested 😙
Take More Vitamins
A big contributor to seasonal depression is a decrease in vitamin D. According to this article, most people seem to be suffering from a lack of vitamin D, and a lot of those people are also suffering from Anxiety and Depression.
Coincidence? The science doesn’t seem to think so.
I used to be so much better about taking my vitamins. And not just D, but a multi vitamin and a mood balancer. And wouldn’t you know it, I felt better then. Not as great as I could, honestly, but a heck of a lot better! So I need to recapture that.
I plan on taking a vitamin D, multi vitamin, mood balancer, and magnesium supplement each morning.
Do More Crafts
I’ve really come to enjoy doing seasonal crafts with the boys as a way of decorating the house. I’ve also gotten more interested in making the home over with decor to match the upcoming holiday.
It makes it feel less suffocating to be home looking at blank walls all the time, and the boys get so much out of doing crafts together. It also helps take us away from too much screentime, which can contribute to mood and behavior problems in toddlers and children.
So at least a couple of times a week, I plan to take to Pinterest and do a few crafts with the boys.
Wake and Bake
I’ve been doing the Keto diet for a while now, so I’ve been missing out on a lot of my old favorite seasonal confections 😭
But I’ve noticed that when I do bake something, I feel accomplished. It’s so satisfying seeing something go from a recipe and separate ingredients to this whole sheet of cookies or a whole quiche.
Vinny also loves watching me and “helping,” so it’s a great way to spend time together and help him learn.
And I have since found so many delicious Keto friendly alternatives to thinks I love 😋
I plan on baking a few times a week to fill the house with the warmth and scents of festive confections to get us through cold days. 🥧
And one of these days I will get the measurements to all of the ingredients right 😂
Living toward the tippy tip of the northeast United States, it gets pretty cold for a pretty long time out of the year, which can make trips to the park sometimes impossible, or at least unpleasant.
But, we have no shortage of Malls in the area where I live, so if the boys (or myself) get cabin fever (which happens A LOT), we can get in the car and go to an indoor play area or take a lap or two around the galleria.
This way the boys get their ya-yas out, and I get some extra steps and exercise 🙌🏻
At least once a week, weather permitting, I plan to take the boys out to a different Mall, or local library event, etc in our area.
Work It Out
Chasing around two boys 2 and under counts a exercise, right?
But in all seriousness, getting a good and proper workout in is easier said than done with kids. But it’s so important for mental health.
What has been working out (pun intended lol sorry) for me is during nap times or meal times, I put on a HIIT workout video and follow it the best I can. I’ll do this a couple of times a day when I know I have at most 10 minutes before the boys need my attention, and on days where I don’t take them out on a walk.
I recommend Lucy Wyndham-Read or Blogilates on YouTube for some quick, fun, and dare I say effective workouts. I also really like the women behind the workouts, as they’re not snooty or pushy and actually fun to work out with. Though their bodies intimidate me, their virtual presence is actually nice.
I plan to do these workouts at least 3 times a week, and at least two videos a day.
These are just a few things I plan on doing to curb the SAD, as well as going to see my new counselor bi-weekly, trying to do more bible study, being mindful of what I eat, and making myself write more!
I think I may be starting to look forward to winter…maybe 😅
What sorts of things do you Mamas do to keep SAD at bay? Let us know in the comments! 💬
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